Re-edited 12/9/24 while listening to. https://youtu.be/Q4SxizAg6bk?si=ceEvmUPyWqGyF7JG.

Years ago I was a lead singer in a Tool-style band after a breakup from a long-term abusive relationship with a bad decision https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tool_(band). Trayce was a descendant of Doc Holliday. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Doc_Holliday. Anyway, that band helped to propel me into a recovery from staying with Trayce for as long as I did. His need for me to keep me where I was you know. He wasn’t a good one. He drank a lot. Worked at High Times Cellars slang hard alcohol and beer. He slammed my head into windshields when I talked in the car I annoyed him with my voice. So driving with men has been difficult over the years to trust a man behind the wheel. I only trusted a few. And one passed away. But I have been getting better. And I have new friends who drive me around and help me pick up furniture. And my family is there for me if I need them. But I am stubborn and like to do it myself. Back in Huntington Beach, Trayce and I had a place off Delaware Street and well when it got too hard and he was a dick to me at Christmas I decided that I would leave for once, I was also in night school and losing weight going to Jenny Craig. Getting healthy. And well I isolated with him and hid my life with my family for fear of rejection. When I did decide to leave I helped him find a roommate before I moved yo Newport Beach, Ca. The roommate debate was a long process, and he just wouldn’t let me go. But he treated me like crap for 9 years. We finally found him a Hawaiian samoan dude and we all had sushi together in HB and I dig sushi. And he was able to keep our old place. We used to go see Jazz and stuff in LA. Thelonious Monk https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Thelonious_Monk was one of them, but some cool LA hotels had some neat rooms where we would sit and chill and just be. So there were good times as well. Music also. But one day we got these tables and stuff and we went to a Hookah place and had some red wine. And I hadn’t eaten much that day. And I got very sick and passed out in the bathroom. He left me in a bathroom passed out next to a toilet where people would come in and pee next to me. I embarrassed him. Thru up on the way home. Happened with Ali also coming back from Long Beach once from a party at a yacht for a stripper friend Kaylee it was her birthday and she was getting into the porn industry but that’s for another day. Red wine also affected me when I was in my band DNYD. I was the lead singer and well I drank the red wine like Jim Morrison https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jim_Morrison. I would love to see my boys in the band again and sing this stuff over differently and make more music with them. But they have moved on and Jason came to visit me once and it didn’t go well. We had so much fun jamming but I was drinking a lot and raising hell in bars around town. And wasn’t thru my issues from the past. I have also had some great times with wine with friends over the years at the Balboa Bay Club with a man named Andrew Jencks. And Temecula with friends and Family. And in Napa, CA with business clients and my family. One trip was with US Advisors and to see my cousin Kevin and his daughter in the Berkeley area. Trayce was like my first long-term relationship, he cheated on me, and he lied, pushed me into sleeping with women and he smoked a lot of weed. His friends tried to touch me when I slept. He didn’t protect me and he wasn’t there for me. He wanted to be a pimp. And so I did some escort work. And some of those nights were very scary. My plan is to go thru those memories and the fear that came drivers who saved my life from men with guns and knives. I did acid with Trayce once and well we watched Toy Story felt like the carpet of the movie theater was climbing on me. And we did a nature walk and then were in the house and a jet flew by and I thought the radio was on. Acid sucks not my deal. But some waitress got it for us liquid pyramid Gel Acid from a Grateful Dead concert. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Grateful_Dead. I was a waitress at an Italian place in Rancho Santa Margarita. The customers there were rude to me. What are you a high school dropout stuff? I was like no I just graduated dude. So lame. But made me cry so my manager said he would take over the table and told me to go home. Such a nice man. Restaurants in town and places I love to eat remind me of being a waitress and how hard they work. I like to tip well. They know and I haven’t seen some in a while because I stopped drinking which is really good. And I’ve been posting about the epic food on Google to help their businesses thrive because I’ve noticed a trend and its working. It’s amazing being out again and being able to eat out and see the economy really come back. I think Trump https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Donald_Trump being our 2025 president is gonna be good for the US. So hold on USA we are gonna be ok. Anyway, if you guys are bored and would like to listen to my song about recovery I posted it on SoundCloud I tried to sing it again but my old blue mic may not work with my newer computer that my mom and dad got for me for my 47th birthday. I think its important for me to have others hear this side of me. I have old photos of me and the boys in the band back then also somewhere on my backups but I can’t find that stuff without the right cables and I tossed a lot of stuff when I purged my past when I went down the rabbit hole of PTSD again. I’m learning that EMDR therapy will work for me. So it’s gonna be cool. Most of my friends in town have heard me sing but not like this… And definitely my family hasn’t heard any of this stuff. So it’s crazy. I would love to have them hear me sing the blues one day also. Enjoy the music.. Holly Ann Garrett aka (Feisty 5-1) cuz I’m short with teeth…NINE inch Nails. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nine_Inch_Nails I also started reading my Henry Rollins books. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Henry_Rollins. He writes how I think and I used to strip to his songs and I wrote him once.. And I wanted to meet him but u know just a crazy fan right.. Musicians were a crazy group. But I’m also a lot of things I think I’m pretty cool and unique. Artist, Singer, Dancer, Writer, Designer & Entrepreneur. I’m also educated and I have a huge heart and stuff and I like to give back to people in need. And I have consumed a lot of content which helps me figure out stuff but makes me worry about things like water and cigarettes so I change stuff up. Move it around and redecorate. I love doing all of that. But today I wanted to share with my people whoever is listening to my old voice and the new one maybe I’ll record something soon with someone famous or something right? IDK kinda cool. Creepy creepy. Or not and I’ll just write some blogs and work. Not sure taking a little me time for a while. Maybe I’ll do my tree tomorrow. Would be cool if my friends came to help. There are also Hawaii memories with my family and Ali and we saw my mom’s friend Shiela with the coconut art she loved that stuff and she knew one of the Beatles. Like he lived down the road from her it was so cool. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Beatles. I loved Ali and he hasn’t come to see me in years. But he was a good one. Just not ready for me. Love everyone and hope everyone is doing better. XO Holly Ann Garrett – Queen Elizabeth descendant and stuff…Here are some photos of back then and the video of my song recovery. I dont need to link it.. I can upload anything i WANT to my website. its my site.. lOL Copywrite I have the orginal lyrics so no one steel my vocals.

Recovery is the old song and the new song is beautiful. Its who i am now. The Lavender Rose. Which is a great flower for healing. https://health.clevelandclinic.org/health-benefits-of-lavender. I use it in my baths, i also have a humidifier with it and I also wear the oil. It has healing powers. My new photos on my about us page reflect the woman I am now. But every photo of me over the years is me. Just a different version who helped build this strong woman that I am today. Thanks for listening.